If I’m in a relationship and it’s going to easy, I’ll create problems around me. I don’t know why but whatever.
I think ultimately I want to see how hard you’d fight for me. And how hard I’d fight for you. If conflict comes up and I don’t try to solve it, it’s just not worth my time and if you walk away on every single argument, you aren’t worth my time.
I’m sorry but I’m a bitch.
I’d rather be single I guess.
You know when people like…talk to you and tell you something and are like yeah I’m down you’re cute let’s hang out and then they just….ignore you for a while and then complain that women are useless and you’re like lol um hello? Like okay I’m interesting and nice to think about because you see me as easy…coooooolll.
Or when they lie to you when someone could just say “nah I’m not into you” like just say it. Don’t string me along so you can find out if this hotter girl wants to fuck you so you can come to me when she says no and be like lol oh hai. Like no. I’m not second best.
And if I am to someone, they can leave.
Im not too picky.
I just want to be looked dead in the eyes while someone is fucking me.
I don’t want you to close your eyes and pretend I’m someone else.
I go from annoyed to amused to happy to sad and back to annoyed in the span of like an hour and It repeats.
I think about sex and how I’d like to have it but then I think it’s too much work for me to deal with and I go back to digging myself into a hole.
But other than that I’m glad you broke up with your girlfriend so you’ll be texting me for sex for a while until you give up. It’s still amusing to say the least.
I don’t play well with narcissistic assholes.
Sorry, not sorry.
why would they make fun of you…?
because what I enjoy spending my time doing is sleeping, playing video games and watching lets players, primarily game grumps and cryaotic and markiplier because they have and will continue to get me through dark times and whenever i’m sad or bored or whatever i just do that because i like it and i enjoy watching it.
the only person who hasn’t made fun of me for this was alex who i found lets players with, like we found them together. one guy. that’s it. who enjoyed it and didn’t make fun of me.
so, finding someone with common interests who isn’t going to grab my tits on the first time i see them is proving difficult. i’m just annoyed, like i said mmph.
sometimes i think, wouldn’t it be cool to have a boyfriend and like be in a relationship again? yeah i’m 21, that’d be fun.
but then I think about it more and I get annoyed and think of having to text them all the time and having to be made fun of for my hobbies/interests, etc and I’m like no…no not really. i’d rather be single and masturbate or something.
because i’m just generally always annoyed.
why are you annoying me.
and why has it been 8 years and we still haven’t fucked.
this is annoying me even fucking more.
i just wanna scratch you off of my fucking list bro, idc about anyone else just you.
Not sure if you still look at my blog though but.
Sometimes I really do miss you. I’m not sure what we had because it was strange and I’ve never felt it with anyone else. I never felt doubtful of you I guess. I never worried that we would have nothing to do. I never worried about keeping you entertained or interested because we had the same interests and what we didn’t share we soon did. Out of everything I miss that the most. I miss being able to share things that I love with someone I love and not being made fun of or mocked or rejected for any of my interests.
In a relationship I wouldn’t care about looks or sex or not having money to go out or receive gifts or anything like that. If only I could have that again with someone. It’d be nice. Really nice.